A bit of light
After my last post, I decided I needed to be a bit more positive about my outlook here. Especially since we are leaving in 7 months and I may very well be crying for my cappuccino within 24 hours of landing in Bali. The new year started fittingly enough with a rainy day - washing away all the grime from 2008 and today I can see the blue skies and sun peaking out from behind the palazzi. I can't help but feel optimistic not only for the day, but for the year ahead.
Change is constant, we all know this, but it's difficult to remember sometimes as a mother of three where routine is the name of the game. There are days when I feel I could go mad from the redundancy, but for the most part I find myself falling into this repetition in a mindless way and not really giving it a second thought. So this year we're going to shake things up a bit - move across the world to a third world country so our children can attend a school and learn what life is like for most of the world population. I think it is important for them to see that not every child has a computer or a cell phone or a scooter. Even though part of me wonders how I could possibly make this move and expose my children to these risks (of course all the infectious diseases come to mind) another part of me knows that if we all survive in tact that the experience will have been an excellent one for them. Change and risk can be good.
So now I'm trying to face 2009 with a different outlook. I'm not making any new year's resolutions. I'm not making any promises. I will do my best to do the things I need to do and not beat myself up over the things I cannot get done. I am getting rid of all old and over ambitious projects. I'm going to say "no" a lot this year which is difficult when I find myself saying "yes" a lot, and more often, volunteering my "yes" without it even being asked of me. I want to put things in order, clean things up, enjoy our last 7 months here and get ready to leave Rome with a glimmer of what I love about it here locked tightly away so that it will be waiting for us when we get back.
Change is constant, we all know this, but it's difficult to remember sometimes as a mother of three where routine is the name of the game. There are days when I feel I could go mad from the redundancy, but for the most part I find myself falling into this repetition in a mindless way and not really giving it a second thought. So this year we're going to shake things up a bit - move across the world to a third world country so our children can attend a school and learn what life is like for most of the world population. I think it is important for them to see that not every child has a computer or a cell phone or a scooter. Even though part of me wonders how I could possibly make this move and expose my children to these risks (of course all the infectious diseases come to mind) another part of me knows that if we all survive in tact that the experience will have been an excellent one for them. Change and risk can be good.
So now I'm trying to face 2009 with a different outlook. I'm not making any new year's resolutions. I'm not making any promises. I will do my best to do the things I need to do and not beat myself up over the things I cannot get done. I am getting rid of all old and over ambitious projects. I'm going to say "no" a lot this year which is difficult when I find myself saying "yes" a lot, and more often, volunteering my "yes" without it even being asked of me. I want to put things in order, clean things up, enjoy our last 7 months here and get ready to leave Rome with a glimmer of what I love about it here locked tightly away so that it will be waiting for us when we get back.
posted by lomalinda at
10:12
1 Comments:
It's a challenge for me to be upbeat, since I'm such a pessimist, but I know it'll be much easier for you! This will be a very special year for all of you, and I hope everything goes smoothly.
Have you rented your apartment yet? If not let me know and I'll write about it again on my blog. I'm not sure that'll be a big help, but it can't hurt, right?!(see what a positive attitude I have?!)
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